For the Record

For the record,
things are different now.
Just so you know,
we'll never be the same.
If there ever was anything
that was less than nothing,
it was me
now
and not then.
I wish we could go back in time
twist the hands of the clocks
defeat the gravity in the sandglass of eternity.
We can't.
The past
has passed us by.
Goodbye hope.
Do you remember those days
when your arms around me
were all we needed to be content?
Recall those moments
when our fingers stretched to meet
if only for the brief moment.
Were they glorious?
I thought so.
Maybe you didn't.
Guess it doesn't matter so much.
Not anymore.
Not to you.
Did you know that I cry
sometimes
when I think of all I've lost?
I do.
Do you believe it?
I told you I loved you.
I meant it.
You say you never loved me.
Did you mean that?
You say we'll be friends again.
Someday.
When the sun shines again.
I don't know if I believe it.

For the record
I'm not over you yet.