Falling

I'm not a trusting person
(It's just a fact.)
I don't easily open up to anyone.
I don't want to have to watch myself fall backward
Into arms that aren't there
To catch me,
And see myself crash to the floor
(Yet another time.)
But you seemed different
Kinda -set apart- from the rest
So I thought I'd give you a chance.
It was great for a while,
//Or at least I thought it was.//
I stumbled a bit
(But not so far),
And you were there to catch me in your arms
And I was swept off of my feet.
You held me close
Promised to never let go.
And I believed you.
Walking up the mountain
Our heads held high
Sure that we'd never fall.
Again I tripped
Slipped
Started to fall.
Once again you caught me
In strong arms,
Carried me a few steps,
Set me back on *steady* ground.
I gave you my trust.
Bit by bit
My heart opened
I made you a place.
You filled it.
(The sun was shining.)
We walked on,
Climbing that mountain.
We were so close to the peak
(Only a million miles high)
When you turned aside
Diverted by a blue jay,
And left the path
And let go of my hand.
I was certain you'd come back,
So sure that you had only been distracted
And not lost.
I was wrong.
(Now)
You're moving out of my heart
And taking the furniture with you.
(And I am shocked.)
I lose my footing.
So close to the top.
Once again,
I find myself falling.
The only difference is,
Now you're not here,
And there's no one to catch me.
I fall forever.
An eternity of gravity
Pulling me to the depths
Of a bottomless pit
To shatter once again on its
Dark (Floor).

Tags: Falling, Abandoned, Sadness